Talking to the boys that I’ve taken interest in this past year has taught me something.
They’re all darling young men, that honestly have the best in mind for me, and i’ll always care for them as people and humans, but I know where my heart lies, and I thank them for making me stronger & allowing me to see this after all those bad times I’ve made them all go through.
Thank you for letting me inside again, just a teeny bit but it’s greatly appreciated. I hope this shows I care, but I’ve changed. No more barging in expecting a place in your heart, but actually earning it.
I can’t reply to your message the usual way so here it goes.
After reading this, you may realize certain things, or why I act a certain way, but never the less, I know for a fact that this is the journey I’m willing to embark.
Here’s to 9 months of swimming.